Monday, September 8, 2014

Summer, Changing Times & the Importance of Family Bonds

Wow. Summer really gets to me. Here I was, excited to have the project that is my blog and life just happens. My boyfriend, Danny was an hour away all summer, so I ended up traveling home a lot. He and I are both from Salina so I was able to kill two birds with one stone and see all the people I love in almost one trip. It reminded me why I quit going to see my family as much- home sickness became a much bigger thing these past few months, comparable to my first months living on my own at the dorms as a freshman. In fact, I would say that it was worse now because of my brothers growing up. I've always been an independent person- my parents raised me to be able to take care of myself, which I thank them very much for doing so- therefore I kept busy enough to not miss home. However, I started going home at least every other week, which brought back the whole 'my baby brother is now a freshman in college' to mind. It's really weird. Whenever I go back to my parents, I always expect everyone to come through the house while I'm there at least once. Now when I go back, it'll be a blessing to have all five of us under the same roof, it's such a strange thought, its hard to imagine, yet here it is happening. I can't imagine how my mother is feeling about it. My family is very close, like Danny's family. I got to know them really well the past few months and I'm very lucky to have such amazing people in my life. I feel sorry for people who say they aren't close to their families. Family is one of the most important things in my life, I can't imagine not being close to mine. Therefore, the priorities in my life are school, my family, and love. At the end of the day, all that matters to me is that I am blessed enough to have those three things in my life. I've had to make some tough choices over the summer. I also got to see one of my best friends in the world. Eyleen, she was a German exchange student when I was in high school and we became very close. She got to come and visit for the whole month of August.
I had to say Goodbye to her a little over a week ago, and it was a tough one. I know I'll see her again, just not quite sure when.
Change a few things about myself, but that is what makes me strong. I am not the timid little freshman I was two years ago. I know who I am, I know what I want - for the most part :)- and I will not let other people tell me who I need to be or how I need to act. It's my life. So, that's why I haven't been writing. Lots of traveling, work, and discovering what is really important to me To the people that say "you're only young once, live it up!" my version is a little different than yours. Family bonding, being able to snapchat my little brother during the school day and talk to him on a semi-regular basis about our lives, that is something that's important to me. Yes, you're only young once, but in your youth, you should work on the relationships that you are going to have for a lifetime.

Sunday, March 23, 2014

Look Back on Spring Break Adventures

Ode to the sun and the fun of spring break. While many of my friends are road-tripping to the beach or mountains, let's be honest, they all just want out of Kansas, I will be working. Although it sounds boring, I'm actually really happy that I'm staying home. It'll be nice to catch up on some sleep, read a few books, have some late night coffee dates with those friends that are in town, and just not have to worry about school. Maybe I'll even find some people to go star gazing with, which is one of my favorite things. I'm also hoping that my baby brothers will come down so I can take them to the zoo. Last year, I went to South Padre Island, TX with a group of friends and it was fantastic! We ate at Yummies for breakfast at least 5 days in a row, and yes, the name does it justice! It was the perfect mix of a classic American breakfast with some southern flavors that reminded me of my mothers cooking (she's from Charleston, South Carolina). I had a black coffee, pancakes, scrambled eggs, and grits, it really was a great way to start the day. Another restaurant that was really great was Gabriella's Italian Grill&Pizzeria. It was absolutely amazing! I had shared a pizza with a friend that had 6 different flavors. So if you're going to Padre, go to Yummies and Gabriella's for me, soak up some of that southern TX sun, and bring the beach back, okay? Although I do miss those places, I fairly have enjoyed this break. I've gotten to hang out with my litte, best friend, catch up on sleep, and just not have to worry about school. However it's back to the grind for the last 8 weeks of the semester and it is time to kick it into high gear y'all. I hope that everyone had a good break, now let's take on these 8 weeks like we know what we're doing!

Thursday, March 13, 2014

A New Beginning.

My name is Savannah, I'm a twenty year old from Kansas, I go to Wichita State University- Shockers up!-, a Leo, compulsive buyer of books, lover of Harry Potter -and anything nerdy (Sherlock and Doctor Who)-, avid coffee and tea drinker, wearer of combat boots/heels and all I want to do is travel the world. In semi-recent times, I got out of a longer term relationship that taught me a lot of how relationships these days seem to work and also a lot about who I am as a person. I'm not going to write about him to ruin his reputation, or to make myself feel better. I don't see the point of tearing down another person, talking about them badly, just to make myself look good regardless of how much it hurts. Although I feel this way, I know that a lot of people out there think that "well the other person is going to do it, so I might as well do it too just to help myself". I may have the urge to do that every now and again, but when I do, I refuse to put it anywhere because it was something that was super personal and I honestly do not think that so many people care that much. I cannot put into words how much he hurt me nor do I think I ever will be able to do so. I'm starting this blog as a beginning, something to focus myself on, to keep me going, and mostly just to get out of my own head while being productive at the same time. I've learned so much in the past two years, about the world, myself, people. I want to learn  peoples stories, sit down and listen, show people that they matter to at least one person, that one person cares enough to listen. Partially, this is another beginning for me, opening up to people. I usually shut down, like many people, because I don't think
anyone goes through or thinks or even feels the way that I do, which is ridiculous of me, however it's just how I function. Nevertheless, getting to the point now, I want to better myself, focus on who I am as a person, love my faults and most of all find the adventures that life has in store for me. Recently, I was honored with the chance to be a "big" to a new member of my sorority. I am very excited and can already tell that she and I will be best friends. We have a lot in common, from our love of many nerdy things (Doctor Who, books, Disney ect.) to our love of music along with sleepless nights because we're insomniacs and love to drink coffee all the time . She was meant to be in my life at this point in time to remind me that someone needs me to be around, even when I feel like no one wants me. She has already helped me through so much more than she knows. She is my perfect little and I can proudly say that she will be in my life for as long as I am around! What I want from this, from myself, is to become a better person, understand people, and most of all just learn from as much as I can. I feel like in today's society, we do not take the time to observe and appreciate what life has to offer us. I want to show people that life isn't about being in a rush, it's about learning that everyday is a gift and that all the people in your life offer you a lesson. Maybe those lessons will be painful, maybe they'll be beautiful, or maybe they'll be hidden until the time is right. However, that is what life is and that's what is beautiful about new beginnings, they are lessons that we are eventually going to learn, and that is something that I absolutely love. Good-byes are not always forever, and hellos do not linger, every beginning has an end and every ending is a new beginning. The destination is the journey.